Thoughts……………………

Right. I’m listening to Kenny G again. So, you done know!!!

Today has been a day where I think I have experienced various emotions. Weatherwise, it has been cool, rainy and dark for almost the whole day. Right now, I actually have on a T-shirt and usually, in the type of temperatures that we are accustomed to here, I usually am in the house in boxers only. But, it is a bit too chilly for that tonight …..yes, I know, too much damn information, right?

Last week, my housekeeper called me on Tuesday morning just as I was making my cup of tea. She sounded very upset. She was calling to say that she was unable to come to work that day as she was having problems with her landlord and wanted to go to the Rent Board.

My Father and I have since discovered that she is going through some hard times financially, and decided to give her some extra money to see if we can help her through this spot. When I gave her the money this morning, she was grateful and made me get very emotional, as she started to cry. I told her to try not to cry too much. I have always said that sometimes we see people getting about their day to day lives, and we really do not know what they are feeling inside and what sort of cares they may be carrying on their shoulders. This may be due to the fact that some people do not share personal matters. Or, perhaps they do not wish to burden others with their worries. I am not at all like this. I talk to people who are close to me. Anyway, I hope we can help her through this.

Initially, when I came home this evening, I thought about posting and, I said to myself that I really had nothing to post about. Then, I checked my e-mail. There was a message from one of my readers Desiree who is from Canada. She said that she had been reading this site for sometime now, and was curious to see what the Doc. behind the scenes looked like. Yes, she wanted a picture. Now, I told her that sometime back, I had posted a picture of myself on the site, but, that I was only partially clothed, and that the picture only showed the exposed part of my body. Essentially I led her to this link. The fact that she wanted to get an idea of what I looked like, made me a bit bashful. I’m not really the type to put pictures of myself on the net. I hope she wasn’t disappointed. I’m sure that some of you are saying to yourself, “Who gives a fart what you look like anyway? Just post!”

Not too long after, Mad Bull came on line and sent me an IM. He indicated that my sister Rufie had made a post today after remaining silent for quite a few months. I was so glad to read it as it was just like talking with her. I became happy. Mad Bull and I then chatted for a while about some other stuff, and I agreed with what he was saying. Eventually he logged out as he was leaving the office.

I then went to his post from earlier and was shocked to rass, to learn how much more our feeble Jamaican dollar had devalued. I became annoyed and concerned at the same time. We really are not looking too pretty and the pinch is being felt by all. Look at what I just related about my housekeeper.

I went and had a nice warm shower and started to think while bathing the hospital bugs off my skin. We often quarrel about our life situations and wish that we had more money, a better job etc. But, when you think about it, there are always people around you who are far worse off. I see proof of this everyday at the hospital. I would not complain if I were paid a better salary, but, I know many people who would jump at my salary if they could do my work. I am by no means wealthy, but, I suppose, I could be far worse off.

Anyhow, I suppose you are beginning to ask yourself where this is all going. Maybe it isn’t going anywhere, I’m just scribbling some thoughts, that’s all. In essence, I am giving thanks. Thanks for my family, my sister Rufie, friends like Mad Bull, thanks that I can help someone in need, and thanks for my life as it is at present, though it is by no means perfect.

The day is coming to an end and I have experienced various emotions today, sadness, happiness, concern, anger, and right now, I think I will just try to live with the present one, contentment. Hope I havent bored you with all my fart thoughts, but, whatever you get out of this, have a good night. Despite all the crap that is going on in the world around us, we still have alot to give thanks to God for. Peace.

4 Responses to “Thoughts……………………”

  1. Desiree Says:
    Hey Doc, thanks for showing the photo, a good looking fellow you are (and I see you were well admired for your looks too when you first posted it!… us females, embarassing you to the point of not putting up a whole album for us? … *tee hee hee* … well, you do as you feel comfortable. — at my site there are few pics of me –or maybe none now do to recent deletion of files by myself, and I’d not be keen on posting many pics of myself either) Oh… btw, when you led me to that pic I was unsure what I’d get, thought for a minute (from your wording) you were going to show me something other than your upper bod! Thanks for showing us (readers) over to Rufies blog, she seems like a great sis! What a great guy you are and your dad for helping the cleaning lady. And… what a day of variety! Rest well.
  2. Jamie Says:
    Great post!!! We all have days that we sit back and reflect and as you said some of us are hard to read for “inability” *the word I choose for myself anyways* of sharing close/personal feelings often. I saw your picture when you posted it and I thought hummmmmmm yummy, but shhhhh we won’t share that with “speedbump” You had a busy day today, emotions tend to take more out of me than working my fingers to the bone and in the end your summary is dead on the money. And thank for the great links I’m anxious to go read them now!! Rest well
  3. Natty Says:
    That was a very touching story. I am glad she really appreciated it. You are truly a wonderful and blessed hhhu man (sniff) being and
  4. Rufie Says:
    Doc, I endorse all the above, you are a wonderful person, brother, doctor etc. I know for a fact that many patients are the better for your being a doctor. As for ‘our cleaning lady,’ I can only imagine how she was crying, she too is a good person. Remember, I was the one who interviewed her for the job at home and was taken with her right away! I love her, too. Thank goodness for you and Daddy. God bless you all.