SEE NO EVIL, SPEAK NO EVIL, HEAR NO EVIL
Nothing like a little self psycho analysis after a long day at work. I have come to realize that we all have an evil streak. DON’T DENY IT! Some of us have little ones, BUT some of us have streaks as wide as the River Jordan.
Sometimes we have some really evil thoughts… like when the bitch in the office got promoted by stepping on people’s throats and you wished she would fall flat on her face…like when some one cuts in front of you in traffic and you wished they would crash into the nearest light pole…
The Bible used to preach “An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth”…YEAH!!! REVENGE IS SWEET! Cutting the bastard back off, screaming “Fucking idiot!!! Did you buy your licence?!!!! Veins bulging and eyes about to pop out of your head….(Can you tell I suffer from really bad road rage?) 
But then, we were taught to turn the other cheek…Hell, sometimes the only cheek I want to turn is the one on my ass! Kiss that!! Speaking of Hell, do you think I should be worrying about spending my next life there? One second….(One Our Father and ten Hail Mary’s later…..)
O.K. we’re human, we all struggle with our conscience on a daily basis. We stifle our rage and our enmity towards the people that wrong us, perceived or real, because we want to be seen as “nice” people.
So how do we deal with it? Some of us chant mantras and babble like crazy people to ourselves “Find a happy place…Find a happy place…Find a happy place!!!” like the starfish in the movie “Finding Nemo” to keep our sanity.
Some of us take our agression out by playing sports…pounding a ball, a bag or ( if we are lucky) somebody else.
Some of us simply lock ourselves away from everybody else, so we don’t commit any murders…Thank God I don’t own a gun….
My personal favourite, is to get out my personal poison of choice to calm the fuck down…I drink, smoke, and vent (read curse like a sailor) to whoever is willing to listen. Not that I care who is listening after I’ve had a few…
Moral of the story is, that most of us seem like nice people on the outside. Looks can be deceiving. Unless I’ve known you for the better part of my life, I don’t trust you further than I can throw you. Jeffrey Dalmer looked like a nice young man…until we found out what an evil psycho he was.
Look into yourselves…How big is the black spot on your heart?
May 28th, 2003 at 8:23 am Morning Domi. Nice thoughts again. Yes, we all think evil thoughts at times, some more than others. One of the ways in which I try to aviod having the idiots who drive badly on the road get my blood pressure up is to listen to music like Kenny G. Yes, it doesn’t always work. It does help sometimes to reel off a conglomeration of our claats after the offending fassyhole! (Doesn’t really do much if your windows are up and the AC is on!)I generally try not to have bad feelings too often. As for the ‘bitch’ at the office…don’t fret too much if it was really you (or some other more worthy person) that was supposed to get the promotion, life has a funny way of dishing out its due karma to people. Don’t forget, we reap what we sow. You can’t reap Bombay mangoes if you plant Hairy! Tek it easy pon de road rage BTW. Have a wikid day!
May 29th, 2003 at 12:37 am Hey Domi, you have to be careful with that road rage crap. I remember it well! Listen, it only serves to get you into trouble. You’re better off venting on your blog instead.Re my most wicked thoughts, when some people really get to me, I’ve found that eventually, it occurs to me that I’d be better off if this person were dead! I immediately squelch this idea, because it is an evil one, but you almost cannot stop it… It comes unbidden to your mind…