Okey Dokey…
Okay, maybe I’m just not interesting - its all good!!! I don’t take it personally or anything that no-one seems to read my posts if the comments are anything to go by - but its a’ight!!! I’m confident in who I am…
Actually - this is now taking me into an entirely different direction than where I intended this post to go… So before I get lost in my psycho-babble, let me start out by saying that having lived in and benefited from being able to live and work in the US for the past seven years, I proudly and joyfully say “HAPPY 4TH of JULY, AMERICA!!!” Tomorrow, my office takes part in a July 4th parade in our ‘hometown’ - the hometown of Weston, where I live and work from… I am participating and looking forward to representing my company and showing gratitude for all the freedom and opportunity America has brought to me…
Having said that - let me go get side-tracked…
“I’m confident in who I am…”
As I typed those words, I thought - what do they mean, really - who am I? And why the frack should anyone else care…
Funnily enough, I have always considered myself to be an open person - MB (my Bro) is actually SUPER QUIET - he is NOT a talker, Guys, (unless Rum&Cokes are involved). I mean he’s ALWAYS been someone who keeps things in - so when he started blogging way back when, we, the Bull family, were like, “Hallo, what??? Who is this and where did he come from - he speaks… he shares… ” I became addicted to his blogs because it was how I got to know what he was REALLY thinking and FEELING…
Then I came to realize in recent years that I myself am not a talker - oh, give me a couple glasses of shiraz or merlot and I can chat your ears off (about pure crap, usually :)), but generally speaking, I speak to my family and I LISTEN.. They ask - “So, what’s up with you?” And I genuinely can think of nothing to share…
Its one of the things I have ALWAYS loved about my mom… I could be having the worst day and have no desire to talk whatsoever, and I can call her up and she’ll always somehow recognize that something’s wrong, despite my disclaimers, but she never pushes me to talk - she TALKS - and CHATTERS - and I listen and feel the embrace of her love and of family and that heals me…
Anyway, I started to really think about who I am…
I am…
A work in progress…
A wife, trying to be the best wife I can be - in all ways that implies…
A daughter, one who carries some guilt for failing to relieve my Dad of stress before he died, and one who is so close, it seems, yet for reasons beyond our control, so far away from my mom…
A sister… one who is TERRIBLE at keeping in touch!!! I lay claim and title to being the youngest but the boss of all of them, but honestly, I’m the poorest at keeping in touch and reaching out. Don’t get me wrong - if someone needs me in a way I can help, I’ll drop everything else to do it - but as a person who interacts and cares deeply about the daily goings-on with my brothers and sisiters, I think… I think I truly FAIL!!!
Am not yet a parent - and I have to admit that there’s a huge amount of selfishness in that…
A God Follower - but one who worries daily that the impact God has made in my life is not OBVIOUS, not EVIDENT, thereby making a KINGDOM difference to those I interact with…
Now in my career… in my career, there are ways I fall short, and ways I SHINE!!! And that’s where I think I’m making a difference…
Some may say its my ‘newness’ to the call of duty - perhaps!!! But over the past year, we’ve been in the top 20% of producers in our office - placing 2nd in our office & 4th in our region!!! As a result, they asked me to join what my company calls the ALC _ Agent Leadership Council. Basically, I’ve learned that since Keller Williams offices are all franchises based on models, the ALC is effectively the Board of Directors of the organization. We have profit sharing and so the agents have a voice with the ownership in how money is spent and in how certain decisions are made!!!
You know what - Midas thinks I’m crazy, because this is really time-consuming - but I have discovered that I have a true PASSION for ‘Giving Back’.
I started in Real Estate on a team (with a different company) but a great team that taught me Real Estate from the ground up - they were the Wong-Sam Group with Coldwell Banker - many Jamaicans may recognize the name… Dennis Barnett (an STGC OLD BOY 
) is also on the team and we were a FAMILY!!!! They taught me everything I know that has made me successful today - and they taught me, most importantly, about caring about community and giving back!!!
Now things happened, I wanted to grow, they maybe misunderstood my dreams, and lets just say that things people did and said intervened and somewhere along the way, they may not realize how much I still love and adore them - as well as how much credit I give to them for where I am today…
In any event, as life developed, Midas & I were both, at different stages, directed towards Keller Williams - and the personal growth, self-realization and personal development I have accomplished since has really led me to see myself as I really am…
You interested in knowing who that is - I was going to go on about it - but considering the comment feedback - maybe I should just wait to see if anyone is interested… if so… let me know…
Introspectiveness (is that a word) can be so empowering - if you care to know how it has empowered me, just leave a comment - and I’ll share more…
Till then,
Walk Good!!!!
7
p.s. … The story continues here. Go check it out, please….
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Hey 7,
Interesting stuff, look forward to reading more!
you better celebrate as much or more when it’s time for Jamaica’s independence celebrations!!!!
hey now, we are always reading, maybe every now and then we get a bit busy at work to comment (pesky bosses) but we are always reading….
Looong post MB! Looks like the Bulls are a family of bloggers. as for The Tower, I just can’t get myself into the habit of reading it. Happy 4th of July too.
@Jamaipanese - You bet I will! Usually I have my Jamaican friends over - we cook up some really good Jamaican food and some wicked dancehall tunes and PARTY!!! They do have an organized event each year, but I’ve never been to be honest - but we have a Jerk festival each year too - and I never miss that!!!
Hey - I finished up this post finally - so if you have time - go over to The Tower Of Babel and check it out - leave me a thought or two, or three
MB and MBJr. are heading here on Friday and I’m SOOO Excited about seeing them I can hardly wait - just wish Natty was coming too!!!! C’yall latahs!!!! 
Hello 7. I think we can all consider our lives as ‘works in progress’…there are simply times when the ‘work’ moves at different paces. If you consider your life as a building, naturally the more mature we become (i.e. closer to completing the building) the slower things may seem to happen. Get me?
“A daughter, one who carries some guilt for failing to relieve my Dad of stress before he died”…what is all that about? I think you are being too hard on yourself. Try and get rid of that guilt…I’m sure your Pops had no ill feelings towards you. And this is coming from a true friend!
Enjoy the 4th of July day from work. I spoke to Rufie yesterday and she is supposed to go to someone’s house in Maryland where they have a deck on the roof of the house so they can see fireworks while BBQing. Don’t drink too much Shiraz or Merlot
Thanks D. - I know my Dad would be horrified that I felt this way - you’re right about that!!! Perhaps I need to admit to a small element of control freak - I am not really aware of that, but I know I have/had this dream to make their final years such a comfort, stress-free zone, that its one of my deepest issues of grief over my Dad that he passed before I was in a position to do that! God Knows, MB did way more of that than I - not only from a $ basis, but from a straight-flat-out love - I’m here for you basis - I feel sorrow sometimes that he had all of that to bear on his own (MB, I mean) and sorrow that I wasn’t there till the end to make him know at the very least how very MUCH I love him and How Much He Meant To Me…) But you - being my ‘other brother’ know more about what I mean than most - thanks for always being my ‘other brother’ - EVEN THOUGH YOU DON’T CALL WHEN IN TOWN!!!
Love Ya D. Tell Rufie Hi, Hugs, Kisses and I will try to drink as little as possible (from this minute on 
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Dem leave Natty home alone??!!!
Hey 7, I have been reading even when I don’t comment. Sometimes I read with the intention of commenting later, then see another post and forget about commenting.
But you’re right, introspectivism (is there such a word?)certainly isn’t a bad thing. It’s important I feel to step back and look on ‘you’ since no one else will be able to do a critical and hopefully honest assessment of ourselves, look at the short-comings and areas of self that need improvement.